If on the earlier painting I was not spontaneous following the plan from the first to the last brush stroke, on this one finished today I totally lost myself. When I finished it was hateful to me, ugly and a big fail, now I love this work. It looks like an MC5 song from the "Kick out the jams" album... hum... I should listen this album again, it has been a couple of months I don't. Well... at least this is how it looks to me now.
I have faced doubts about what way to take on my work..... it is getting too complicated, different of all the visual simplicity it used to have. Both are intense, strong and sincere..... I just don't know what is going to happen and how I am going to deal with it.
I really don't want to take the control, only allow the painting keep being itself as a "noble free spirit female" must to be.
Other thing is about : "For whom have I painted for ?" hahaha.
Really.
Who likes what I am doing ?
Not the typical hipster always looking for the next trend.
Not the people that likes fine art and "well painted oil paintings" with conventional images.
Not the old typical academics with head in wax that worth ship abstract painting and that second half 20th century hegemony of NY-London cheap conceptual art.
Not the "kids" and nerds crazy for tumblr-devian fantastic-impressive illustration.
Doesn't matter how many people exist on this world interested in art... it seems that I have painted for no one.
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I don't paint for you, Linda.
ReplyDeleteI feel you Caio and I love what you've been doing with your work, even if it does feel strange to you, I think it's all about the moment of doing it and not painting for anybody, once we do that it's not really coming from the purest place within us...keep going my friend, you are only evolving, even though it may not feel like it, you most surely are...
ReplyDeletebe well my friend...!
Hi.
ReplyDeleteyes, yes... I know, this post isn't a sad or depressing post at all... it is only a note .
I like what is happening here in my studio. I think it has been exiting in many different ways.
Thank you.
..and you too be well.
Ha! I'm with you my friend. Asking myself the same question(s) Who likes what i am doing? Can people see what i want to say or do i fail? But it doesn't matter what answer i'll get on the question because i HAVE TO draw and paint anyway.
ReplyDeleteWonderfully strange also how your art talks to you isn't it? Often i love my work while creating it, then i feel disappointed, sometimes even hating it or doubting it and after awhile i'm in love again.
I LOVE your art Caio, maybe just an itchy bitch tiny tiny bit you also paint for me enjoying looking at it, falling in love with it? I love how your work evolves and i am very curious how it evolves further..... No matter what i'm sure i love it all. Because it's honest and true and raw.
No package arrived yet? I think i send you a new one if it doesnt arrive this week.
Hugs and kisses!
Luna !
ReplyDelete"I have to" ! this is the answer for all the questions. hahahah"
I tottaly paint for you, Monica.
thank you.
nope, no package. I am concerned too.
and curious !
hugs and kisses.
LOL See? The answer is easy to find. ;-) And no you don't paint totally for me, but thank you for the idea.
ReplyDeleteI like the reason you mention of which people have to be impressed so to seem. BIG art, SCREAMING for your attention and then shock you. So very easy, such tricks. I don't like that at all. But sometimes i wonder my drawings are too small to impress at first time? Galleries think it's not impressive enough, because of the seizes? I don't know.... Is this world going too fast to look long enough to a piece of art to see, to feel the depths of it? One look at it, click the like button or not and hoppa, there's something new i must see. Do i like or not? Next. Haha i am not a pessimistic though, i am guilty of that too sometimes. People who really are interested in your work, that's what keeps me going to not loosing it. LOL
Yes i now also am a bit concerned, be patient my friend, Saturday i send a new package but then with special safetyness > i don't know the word for it.
Your curiosity will be satisfied soon.
xoxo
Wow, that english of me is pretty bad hahaha.
ReplyDeleteLuna,
ReplyDeletewell, you said all.
everything, all, alles, tudo.
xoxo
Oi Caio,
ReplyDeleteBRAVO, BRAVO, BRAVO.
Tchau,
Gary.
Eyyy... I love it!
ReplyDeleteCaio, you are quite a happy guy, since you like at least part of your work. I usually don't like a single piece I did. Compared to you, I paint much more conventional things. But still, I guess my list of people who don't really like what I am doing is almost the same is yours :)
ReplyDeleteGary, bellisimo ! gracie, bravissimo !
ReplyDeleteTchau!
Eduardo,
thank you amigo, abrazo!
Alexandre -
well.... yes, i am happy.
but it is good to do not like what you produce, it forces you to improve the work.
thank you for coming. see you.
Hi Caio,
ReplyDeleteas I told you some month before I had problems with your cuttings but now I really like the new paintings, special this one and the one before.
They are very substantial to me. For whom to paint? I think nearly every painter knows this but throw it away. Every painting of yours is an own little world. I think without doubts no new steps could happen, they are the custodians (?) on the way. And your way is sooo good. Really. It's good to see you working again ...
take care
see you
Nicole
Nicole,
ReplyDeletewhy did you desapear ! ???
i missed you.
I don't remember you saying that didn't like the cuts.
But thank you. yes, every painter knows this but throws this away.
take care you too.
Hello Caio..I love this work too---and it is interesting to me that there was a time that you didn't, but that you changed your mind. I always love the patterns and designs you juxtapose with the features. I don't know who I paint for either.."they" either like it or don't no matter what we think. I'm glad you photograph these how everything is supposed to be displayed..but perhaps you would change your mind each time you put them up. These paintings are not static...!
ReplyDeleteCeleste.
ReplyDeletehahah, this is something make me concerned... if people in the future will hang on the wall.... I am pretty sure about the positions, I will not change that , never. the work was entirely made to be displayed that way. Hope people respect it when they hang the work. The signature behind the paiting is always on the position it must to be hanged.
yes, the patterns, Ilike it a lot too.... I intend to incorporate it more and more with the head but so far I just don't know how. Soon I will solve it and the painting in going to be even more intence and pretty.
Thank you Celeste. kiss.
it is somthings special (i have said the last post too) I see in your last works somethings that will be innovative for art world, is very good caio
ReplyDeleteLaura,
ReplyDeletethank you Laura,
yes, I think I can add something new and offer a unique, sensitive, and authentic art to people.
see you bambina.
will you do a book of these paintings?
ReplyDeleteone day, yes.
ReplyDeleteHi Celeste !